Well, I leave in 2 weeks.

Going out on the town in a limo with my Dad, my brother, and some rich guy. Sounds sweet as fuck, be back later.

One more month !!!!!!

Well, I booked my flight yesterday. I have 5 weeks left. It's a crazy feeling. These are my plans for the next 5 weeks (as of now, anyways).

July 13 - 14: Miami, FL to go to the Japanese Consulate. I want to hang out with SoFla people while I'm down since I probably won't be down there again.
July 24 - 26: Rocky Mount, NC for Rocky Mount X. Doitdoitdoit.
July 30 - August 2: Orlando, FL for AFO and to hang out with my Orlando friends, since I probably won't be in Orlando again. There's a chance of me going to Jacksonville on Friday for Josh's (Ryan's?) AFO party or whatever. I also might go to AFO (probably not), but if you're in the area, holler.
August 14 - 16: Daytona, FL for Project Storm 2. Please come to this if you're in the scene at all. This (for me) is going to triple as not only my last Storm, but as my going away party as well as my 21st birthday party (I turn 21 on the 23rd). I'll look more into the details later on I guess, but I'm figuring to do something Saturday night. Get me a birthday present or something. :p Also, I won't be attending any of Sunday's events, as I'm spending Sunday with my family.
August 17: I leave for Japan at 8:25AM.
August 23: My 21st birthday, woohoo!
August 29: Classes start. :3

Hang out with me before I leave. :x

I'm moving to Japan in less than two months.

MetroCon is this weekend.

VERY IMPORTANT POST

Well, I suppose it's about time that I've made this post. Some you already know about this, others might not. In any case, here we go.

I'm moving to Japan. Like...for good. I'm not sure how long I'll bethere exactly. I'm transferring to a university in Tokyo (Temple University Japan), and being that I have 2 years left in college, it's safe to say that I'll be there for atleast 2 years. By the time I graduate I could have myself a job, or who knows, maybe I'll be sick of Japan by then. I have no idea what the future holds.

That said, I'm leaving August 18th. I'll arrive on the 19th, and classes start on the 29th.

I'll be moving back to Tampa soon to spend some time with my family before I leave. I want to see as many of you as possible before I go, so I'll be posting a sort of tentative schedule soon so we can figure something out. So far, this is what's going on:

I'm moving back to Tampa June 11th. That is, this is my move out date, so I'll be busy around this time.

FOR THOSE INTERESTED

I'll be having a psuedo-going away party this Saturday at my apartment. This is mainly for my peeps in Orlando who wanna hang out before I go, but you out-of-towners are more than welcome to join the festivities. Just, uhh, let me know in advance so I can get an idea of how many people/who to expect.

Now, I do realize that Jacon is also this weekend, but hey, most of you will already be in town then, right?

Either way, for those of you who can make it, excellent. If not, that's fine. I'll be having a real going away party in August in Tampa that I want everyone to come out to! I'll post more details on that when plans become more finalized.

And finally I suppose, for those of you unsure if you can make it to either, I WILL be at the following events, so if I can't see you before then, I might see you at these. :]

Jacon
Metrocon
DDR Storm (?)
Rocky Mount

With that said, these next 3 months should be filled with unforgettable memories (exactly 3 months from today in-fact), and I look forward to seeing everyone at some point before then!

ONE MORE DAY

When does the hero rise?

When do the good guys start winning?

燕雀鴻鵠・・・（えんじゃくこうこく）

Wish I wasn't so stressed out all of the time. :|

So yeah, I don't use this things anymore.

Comment if you give a shit:

Storm was really fun. I really don't spend enough time at a computer anymore to sit down and make long posts. Oh well.

Umm, let's see, past 2 weeks recap:

2 weekends ago, went to fair, was awesome as usual. The following day I went out to dinner with this chick Mariko. It was ago. I then went out to a V-Day party with Ady, met some really cool people, namely Junko, Mamiko, Vikki, Yuko, and Masa. Afterwards, Vikki, Yuko, Mada, Ady, Ran and I went out to Ale House, had amazing time, came back to my place and had one of the best parties ever. That night was incredible.
Next day didn't do shit.
Wednesday bumped into Yuko on campus, was pretty sweet. Betwixt juggling Japanese study with Nick, hanging out with friends from Japanese class, and Yuko (all within like 5 feet of each other), Wednesday afternoon was pretty sweet.
Thursday evening David comes up and we go out to get amazing sushi with Junko and Mamiko. After that we go to Wonderworks, and that was really fun too. Really good evening.
Right after we drop them off Ady calls me and we meet up with him at huge Friday's/City Walk. I couldn't get in (not 21), so they meet us back at my place later after David and I got drinks. It was pretty fun, met some of Ady's high school friends, played games, this chick Yuki played a lot of pop'n music (lol), and this other girl whose name I don't remember didn't talk much. w/e Right after they all leave Ginger & friends show up at my apartment. We sleep.
DDR Storm on Friday, but Friday night I went out to some billards bar and met up with Yuko and Vikki for Vikki's B-Day. Was pretty sweet, met some of her CHINESE friends (lol), and had a good time. I'm terrible at billiards.
DDR Storm on Saturday, I won SN2 tech and Extreme Rumble. Also got 2nd in Extreme tech. Announced my retirement, went out to Cracker Barrel with everyone. After we got back to Orlando, everyone but David and I wanted to sleep so we went out to Vikki's house party and DAMN THAT SHIT WAS AMAZING. This guy Calvin gave me a million drinks. What a baller. Anyways, good times, came back home, passed out.
Sunday was standard tech and rumbles. I got to do good-bye matches for old time's sake with most of the FL DDR crew who's still around. It was very nostalgic and meant a lot to me. Went out to "fa-sho"lies with everyone who was left, said our goodbyes, went back to my place. I don't think we ended up doing anything Sunday night.
Oh, and at some point we watched the Street Fighter movie and it was amazing.
On Monday I went out to Boardwalk Bowl with Bert, played Pump, met up with Darren, good shit.
Tuesday (yesterday) I met up with Nick, bumped into Allen, bumped into Luke, and bumped into other people, and we all went to the conversation hour at school. Apparently a bunch of Japanese students just transferred in, so it's been pretty busy over there. I couldn't do it because I had homework. After my class I went home. Darren and KJ invited me to go out to Roxy but I was too tired. Maybe next time. <3
Today the same shit happened as last Wednesday juggling groups of people, sans Yuko, and it was good times. After class we all went out to eat at Ruby Tuesday's and it was incredible. This chick Ayaka came with us and we taught her a lot of swear words. She's the most adorable thing ever, it was amazing. Spent like 2 hours in the parking lot, came home.

And here I am.



Tomorrow...going to a morning class, afterwards doing math until 3:30, doing conversation hour at 3:30 (sounds fun!), and then whenever I'm done up here I'm going down to Tampa to finalize everything for my "big plan". Coming back up Friday, possibly going to my friend Dan's, possibly hanging out with Yuko and Vikki Fri night. Saturday possibly going to Tallahassee for Alex's B-day (<3), or maybe staying in O-town to go to Roxy with this chick Mary. No plans for Sunday, I don't think, but isn't MegaCon this weekend? I suppose I'll have to fit that in there somewhere.



Well, that's that. I remember just saying I wasn't going to make a long post...oh well. I don't make these too often because then no one would read them. If you care about what's going on in my life, then awesome. Eiher way, I really just kind of use this thing as a way to remind myself of important, notable events in my life.

2009 is still awesome. Don't let me down!

2009 has yet to fail me in terms of providing pleasant and much appreciated surprises at the most perfect times possible.

I won't get ahead of myself, so I'll be brief. Good (great) things are coming, and new beginnings are being formed.

I'll try to be more vague in my next post.

:]

Peace(^^)v

Happy Valentine's Day, everyone.

I'm going out tonight, wish me luck～☆

I just played Pump It Up NXA for 12 hours today. That's not 12 hours of waiting in line, or being around a Pump machine, but 12 hours of me being the only one on the machine playing all day long.

Good/bad idea?

I'll probably be regretting this tomorrow, LOL. Anyways NXA is the best dance game ever bye.

It's almost February. Most of us associate February with Valentine's Day. Like most years, I'm single this time around. It sucks, because I'm really in the mood to do something fun.

Soooooooooooo, who wants to be my valentine? lol

<3

The Florida State Fair is coming up again soon...

Wow. It's already been a year?

That's...really hard to believe. I have an LJ post about the state fair about 10 posts down.

Well, anyways, might as well kill two birds with one stone with this post. Apparently a lot of people are expecting things of me this weekend and I have absolutely no idea who/what they are. If I made plans with you, please remind me who, where, and what. I doubt I can fulfill everything, but if you don't remind me, I honestly will not remember.

AIM is good, too.

Clean apartment is clean.

Monday Brett and I went with my friend Ady and his friend Aya to Fun Spot. It was incredibly fun, no homo. They also had an Extreme machine?

Tuesday I went out to karaoke with...well, too many people to list. It was incredible, as usual. We then went to my friend Haruka's place afterwards for a party. Played wierd ass drinking games, spoke a lot of Japanese.

Yesterday was my first day of class, it was pretty sweet. My math class doesn't seem too bad. The girl next to me was pretty cute. I bumped into friends from Japanese class (literally...like 6+ of them, all completely uncoordinated), grabbed food, and hung out till class started. Also saw Nick for a bit, too. Coincidently enough, I bumped into Haruka on my way to Japanese. Apparently she has a class at the same time as my Japanese class in the room right next to it. Cool! So I'll be seeing her a lot which is neat.

Anyways, I woke up at like 6:30AM this morning for no reason, but I feel great. I have class at 12, David's coming up, and we're gonna go play ITG in Daytona with Kevin and shit.

SOUNDS GOOD, SEEMS GOOD, IT'LL BE GREAT I PROMISE.

I never use this thing.

New Year's party at Josh's was incredible. Rocky Mount was amazing.

I've had a most excellent start of 2009, and I expect this to be one of the best years yet, with many exciting and superior years to come!

As for 2008, I'd dig out some time to make a reflections post, but there's really no need to; 2008 was one of the worst years of my life. Thankfully, that one is over, and this one has just begun!

Don't expect me to use this thing much -- I hardly use the internet anymore as-is.

Anyways, fun shit, great times, good night.

Hey, who remembers this post?

http://kazestyle.livejournal.com/17072.html

None of you? That's probably because nobody responded to it, which is of course, ironic in itself, considering the subject of the matter.

My life from an outside perspective would seem pretty good. But coming from a first person perspective, I can assure you that it's actually quite terrible.

Let me start at the top. I've been single for over a year now. In the span of this year I've had little to absolutely no female attention whatsoever. I honestly don't think I've had so much as a single girl even flirt with me. But even that aside, I'm absolutely horrible with girls. I simply don't know how to flirt. I don't even know how to walk up to one and talk to them. Any girl I've ever dated in my life was with the assistance of not only a friend, but usually the prospect's best friend, or equivalent. I dated Mia with the assistance of my friend Angela, who more or less hooked us up. I dated Elizabeth with the assistance of Sarah, and ironically, proceeded to date Sarah afterwards with the assistance Elizabeth. I dated Serena with the backing of her "sister" Lauryn and her then-boyfriend Zachary. The only reason I ever really met Virginia was because I was really good friends with Allysa at the time. I dated Naomi through her friend Mari, and the backing of my friends in Japan. And finally, I suppose, I met Risa on that extra level by becoming good friends with her best friend Toto, who helped me out. Not only have I never dated a girl on my own, but I don't even know how to meet them. Girls that I find attractive at school or elsewhere don't seem interested in me. I don't get the attention like I'm the kind of guy who girls are attracted to. But having myself the confidence I do, I like to think I am. It usually backfires in my face when I try to so much as become friends with them, as I get isolated and rejected. Or in most cases, simply ignored.

But hey, there's more to life than just relationships, right? School and friends should come first.

Yeah, you'd think so, wouldn't you. I used to think I had multiple best friends, people who were so close to me. In reality, it's that I have multiple friends, and many acquaintances. My e-mail inbox is always empty. I never have new comments or messages on MySpace or Facebook, nor friend requests. I hardly get IM's from anybody anymore, and I definitely never receive phone calls from anyone outside of my inner group of friends. That is of course, a group of about 3 people; David, Brett, and Heather. Speaking of Heather, I haven't heard from her in over 2 weeks. Last I did, she was going to come over. Excited over seeing my friend, I cleaned up my apartment, went to blockbusters to rent a movie, made the evening and the following day free, and left a key for her outside. When I got home from class, the key was still outside. I came home to an empty apartment, and went to sleep. Never even watched the movie, and got charged a late fee. I thought I'd see her the following week, but I never heard from her. I told her I'd love to atleast go to her graduation. Never heard from her, and it was yesterday. Congratulations on graduating, atleast.

And then there's school of course. Not that I get good grades anyways. I'm usually depressed or lonely, and find myself in bed at late hours of the night, never having time to focus or study. I have company every weekend, and while I enjoy the company, it doesn't help my study habits. Most of the time my friends seem ungrateful for anything that I do, and scold me if I refuse to acquiesce to their requests. I try my hardest to make everyone happy, and in the end the one getting screwed is me. I never feel any accomplishment in anything that I do. Nobody every congratulates me. Nobody ever pats me on the back. Mainly because I hardly have any friends I guess, but the few friends that I do have are never impressed with anything I do. They never offer a helping hand. I have to beg them for them to so much as throw me crumbs. It's funny every now and then, but it gets weary and I often find myself making excuses so that I can have alone time and peace. Of course, my depression and loneliness kick in once no ones around, and it really doesn't do me any better.

I have a nervous disorder where I twist my hair. Some people bite their nails, I rip my hair out. I'm constantly trying to get in shape so I can look good, but my depression leads me to unhealthy eating habits, and I never attain the goals I want. Both of my parents are in financial distress, and I'm jobless. I'm single. I'm depressed and unhappy. I have very few friends who give a shit about me, and those who do treat me like shit. I haven't gotten a single A yet in college. Every inch of hope I find gets shattered the second it happens. It's like looking forward to something for upwards of 6 months, and not knowing that it isn't going to happen until the day of, about 20 minutes before showtime. And once you've been beaten, abused, ripped to pieces, and thrown out into the streets, no one is there to hug you, to offer a shoulder to lean on, or arms to cry in. Everyone is selfish. No one offers themselves up. I offer myself up, and at this point there's little left for me to offer anyone, even myself. On the outside I smile, cheer, and laugh. On the inside...

I'm going to make this public, but I'm disabling comments. If you have something to say, say it to me. Don't message my PC screennames, I won't be home. Goodnight.

Comment to be added. If you comment and I don't add you, that sucks. ^_^

If you've already been added, but you don't add me back in the next 2 or 3 weeks, I'll get rid of you. I'm only really looking to have mutual friends here.

And finally, if we are mutual friends, but I find that your entries are nothing more than annoying and clog up my friends page, you will be removed.

Have a niiiiiiiiice day.